Colours inspire me.

To you

2011-12-26T18:05:00.000-08:00

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

Expressions from within

2011-05-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

Hello fellow readers, though I'm quite sure there are none by now since technology has advanced and our precious time has taken a toll on us as individuals, guiding us both in and towards much more fascinating aspects of the very subject 'Life'. That being subjective, my objective in even attempting to restart the blogging habit or craze is to keep track of myself. Have you ever felt like you happen to be drowning in a pool of thoughts in the middle of the day, then you snap out of it and you notice that you are aimless and have no idea what it is that you actually are passionate about? Maybe you have..maybe you have yet to reach such a stage.

For those of you who are able to relate, I am going to be honest here. I am aimless. How do I tell my parents that I actually am interested in doing Mass Communication. Dealing with people is almost my means of bread and butter. No, not in the sense of income but more of the way of life. My parents would probably kill me because I don't seem to be interested in Chemistry, Biology or even Physics. What am I supposed to do? Who do I run to? I have so much of passion for writing it doesn't seem to be a funny thought anymore. I love how people are able to articulate emotions, using words. I have no burning desire to walk into the hospital everyday to visit random sick patients. My own immunity is so low that I am even able to catch fever, which by the way, happens to be an individuals own body response towards viruses or infections.

But then again, I love medicine...I mean it's probably weird that I wouldn't mind being left alone in a hospital at all because I honestly do enjoy it. I have a major passion for talking to people and relating to them..but I'd like very much to be able to save lives if I could. For me, the best part of being in a hospital is probably dealing with the medications and the instruments.. and HELLO?! Love for pathology much.. Is it strange that a girl likes dissecting cadavers? I LOVE IT. Can't wait to get my hands on one. =)

Help..

I Never Told You

2010-09-25T06:06:00.001-07:00

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

=)

Updates

2010-08-29T00:37:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all! How you doin? =D

Excuse me for the negligence of updating my oh so very interesting blog(pfft hahahahahaha). I've been quite busy lately. Exams are round the corner and I literally cannot be bothered. I've resigned as Head so now there's one less thing to think about when I do whatever it is that I want to do in school. Anyways, Yi Qin's party was on the 22nd of August and I must say the company and food was really good. Lester picked me up at like 4.45pm (yes, I know it's EXTREMELY early) as he didn't want to get lost..We were the only two there at first so I decided to feed her fishes. It was exciting. Met a few mates there as well, Nic's friends. =)

Anyways, Merdeka is coming up. I usually post patriotic songs and stuff like that during August but like I've already typed out, I've had quite a bit to deal with including lazyness. We have been asked to wear traditional outfits to school on monday. Tuesday's a holiday! yey! Can't wait for that. These are the few things that have happened and are about to happen. I'm lazy to type out the other stuff so yeah...byeee for now!

Stand by me.

2010-07-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

No I won't be afraid,
No I won't be afraid,
Just as long, as you stand
Stand by me..
And Darlin' Darlin' Stand bye me,
Oh now now stand by me,
Stand by me,
Stand by me

I feel like an old pregnant woman who can barely walk. No..I'm not exaggerating although, I don't really know what an old pregnant woman feels like. I'm sure it's what I am going through..haha

My back is literally eating me alive. It hurts and the feeling is appalling. I have acute arthritis as well. How fun. My tail bone hurts everytime I stand up and walk the first few steps. I don't deserve this for heaven's sake, I'm not even 17 yet. GRR

Baby

2010-07-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

This issue has been bugging my life so I have decided to blog about it. Has anyone realized how many babies or children have been abandoned by their parents?Has anyone ever wondered what was going through the mother's mind when she dumped her new born baby into the dustbin? Isn't anybody going to stop this from happening?! Those pale things that you dump aren't toys you know! What is the point of keeping the foetus in your body for 9-10 months and then just throwing it away? Why go through so much trouble? If you didn't want the child couldn't you have just gotten an abortion? Don't you feel sorry for what you've done? Why is it that society has been talking about this matter but till now no action has been taken? HELLO??!! People are taking life for granted here. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? I would, but I can't as I'm apoparently too young to bring this matter up. Gahh. FTW

You and I

2010-06-30T05:49:00.000-07:00

Well then, I guess it's true how the elders say that you never really know what you have until it's gone. I know they're suffering now and I know I am not disturbed by it. They should have learnt to appreciate more. It's a little too late now. Dismissal letter will be sent out and I.Will.NOT.Regret.My.Decisions.

Danny Dutton

2010-06-25T22:19:00.000-07:00

I came across a random blog which was specially for stories and I happened to read this one which I thought and still think is adorable coming from an 8-year old child. This child was asked to write anything at all on ''Explain God''. I don't really think this is the right topic to grade a child by but yeah whatever. haha

How to Explain God was written by Danny Dutton, age8, from Chula Vista, California, for his third grade homework assignment"Explain God". "One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grown-ups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way He doesn't have to take up His valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers.

"God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times besides bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because He hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in His ears, unless He has thought of a way to turn it off. "God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have." Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church."

Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him.

But He was good and kind, like His Father and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said O.K.

"His Dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did.

And now He helps His Dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones He can take care of Himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important.

"You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.

"You should always go to Church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God.

Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.

"If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids."

But you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and He can take me back anytime He pleases.And that's why I believe in God.

Grand Dorset

2010-06-19T07:44:00.001-07:00

Sang horribly....AGAIN =(

Update

2010-06-17T05:15:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT?! Another performance on Saturday! No idea where the Hotel is though. (=.=)
Anyways, I'm planning to wear the gold dress which Aunty Jackie bought for me! <33 I love it! I really do. Thanks Aunty Jackie! I'll be going out tomorrow to buy myself new black heels since my last pair looks distorted now. Tania is picking me up and I think we'll be in the mall for a bit. I'm excited about the outing.

On the other hand,

My back is really killing me. The pain was in the lower back initially because that's where a certain Genius's foot landed after doing a flip. Guess who =.=
I spent half of last night making ice and placing it on my back. Today though the pain has gone all the way up my spinal chord and I feel like my mom. =.=

14.6.10

2010-06-13T22:46:00.000-07:00

You know what's the horrid thing about getting someone cremated? You can't visit them ever again. It's like..the end. At least when someone is buried you get that sense of comfort that the person who has been buried isn't that far away from you and you can physically visit his/her grave and pay your respects and well just spend time. Some people say it's better to cremate the body but you know when you think about it, cremation leaves you noting but memories to hold on to. Sometimes memories just aren't enough. Sometimes you wish you had more time to say a few things which you might have forgotten to say. Sometimes you just want to feel that bond that you shared with him/her who has deceased.

Today marks the 3rd year. I miss you.

New layout

2010-06-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

See my blog!! It's so prettified now! I love how you are greeted by an explosion of colours and then things mellow down as you scroll downwards. =D It's excellent! I love it I love it I love it!!! Blogger came up with this whole new 'design' concept where you can pick more themes and play around with the colours and stuff. It's juste stupéfiant. I'm going to visit my blog more often from now onwards.

Birthday!!

2010-06-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RESHWEEN!!!!!!

I was supposed to stay up till 11.58 and send her a message saying happy birthday so that I could be the last one to wish her for that day, but I slept off. I'm sorry!! I only realized this morning.. =(

17 isn't really that old. Look at the bright side, you'll be able to drive soon =D

Monsters.Inc

2010-06-05T23:11:00.000-07:00

This was taken today..Look at the little monster's face ^^ tsk tsk tsk

This was taken last year... ^^

Adorable much. She's recovering,thank goodness for that. Just one more year of treatments and that's the end of all hospital visits. Yey for her! Today she came over, made a birds nest on my bed with leaves and started her story telling session.. The boy on the other hand refused to sit still, so I couldn't really snap a pic of him. He's gorgeous now. I wish I had his eyelashes, seeeriously!! If only he was older and not my cousin... pfft...

Home

2010-06-04T22:35:00.000-07:00

I can't believe they're going to sing this for MP. I hope it works out..hahaha

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

1st June 2010

2010-06-01T06:21:00.000-07:00

'I cry to you, my Lord, my rock! Do not be deaf to me, for if you are silent, I shall go down to the pit like the rest. Hear my voice raised in petition as I cry to you for help, as I raise my hands, towards your holy of holies.'

He read the bible day in and day out. He was faithful throughout. He was patient. HE was amazing. He helped everyone who needed help. He gave without expecting anything in return. He cared because it was his nature. He stood by her and supported her through thick and thin. He was a gem of a man. In fact, the very word 'man' if used on this individual, is degrading. He was there for his family and mine. In the end he was stripped of everything he owned including his rice bowl, by his very own 'family'. He knew it was her, but he forgave her because he is the kind of individual the world lacks.

'Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delight in truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.'

He forgave them before he left. I miss him terribly especially knowing that it is going to be three years now since he left. Christmas just isn't the same anymore. In fact, nothing has been the same since he left.

I'm sorry I didn't have a chance to say thank you. We miss you.

Results

2010-05-31T07:14:00.000-07:00

Elo baybehh, you so sexayhh!!

Chemistry paper 1 -40/50 &^#$ YEAH!!!!

Today has to be the happiest day of my week so far. =D

Exams are so mundane. They make you feel horrid especially when results are out. It's disheartening honestly when you try your best and instead score really low marks. It's even more annoying when this specific person says ''Don't worry, It's not in the exam!'' and that very thing he or she said which supposedly isn't included actually comes out. GRR. I keel you. Lost the blogging mode. Will blog perhaps after the exams. =.=

Till then byeiloveyou.

Loser

2010-05-29T06:57:00.000-07:00

Gaius needs a new phone. Such a bum. I sent him a message asking him to meet me the other day but then his phone had to die before he even received the message from me. pfffffft. I hate his phone. I really really really do. Stupid Gaius. I miss you.

Also, I bumped into Samad on Friday. XD XD Well technically she bumped into me. Haha should've seen her smile. So adorable. Tania and I had chili's as per usual, where we met a cute waiter, as per usual, who checked her out, as per usual =). We laughed at and about the stupidest things and enjoyed dinner =)

Neways.. I'm going to try and attempt to do something productive. Bye

Moral

2010-05-26T04:33:00.000-07:00

This baby, is what I have in my head for tomorrow;

Cinta akan negara: Perasaan sayang dan bangga terhadap negara serta meletakkan kepentingan negara melebihi kepentingan diri

Taat Setia Kepada Raja Dan Negara: Kepatuhan dan kesetiaan yang berkekalan terhadap Raja dan Negara

Sanggup berkorban untuk negara: Kerelaan melakukan atau menyerahkan sesuatu termasuk nyawa sebagai tanda kebaktian kepada Negara

Menyayangi dan menghargai alam sekitar: Kesedaran tentang perlunya memulihara dan memelihara alam sekeliling untuk mengekalkan keseimbangan ekosistem.

Keharmonian antara manusia dengan alam sekitar: Keadaan saling memerlukan hubungan yang harmonis antara manusia dengan alam sekitar supaya kualiti kehidupan terpelihara.

Kemapanan alam sekitar:Prihatin terhadap persoalan alam sekeliling dan berusaha menyelesaikannya.

Peka terhadap isu-isu alam sekitar: Pengekalan keseinbangan alam sekeliling sebagai tanggungjawab bersama untuk kesejahteraan hidup.

Kasih sayang terhadap Keluarga: Perasaan cinta kasih dan sayang yang mendalam serta berkekalan terhadap keluarga

Don't forget

2010-05-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all

And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget

You so awesome like that

2010-05-22T04:08:00.000-07:00

Blue as the sky,
Sunburnt and lonely ,
Sipping tea at the bar by the roadside,
just relax just relax...

Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo

Exam*(#$%@inations

2010-05-19T01:49:00.000-07:00

BM1

BM2

Sejarah 1 (I slept off)

I'm tired.

My brain cells are fried.

I'm going to sleep now.

Tomorrow's Agenda:
-ENG1
-ENG 2
-Maths 1

Ps: I hope the stupid road not to be taken poem doesn't come out.

A little bliss in her life

2010-05-17T01:28:00.000-07:00

Her ears love the vibrations caused by instruments. Whenever the vibrations are present, it's almost like the visible body disintegrates and her soul is left bare in all it's nakedness, so vulnerable yet invisible to man. So delicate, so fragile... This is one of the soft spots that she has. It's almost like there is not a day that goes by without the presence of those vibrations in her life. That special bond between the waves created by these vibrations and her soul have grown so intimate that everytime she listens and absorbs these sound waves, her soul is uplifted

Peranan wanita

2010-05-15T19:10:00.001-07:00

Kita sering mendengar slogan yang berbunyi "Pemuda harapan bangsa, Pemudi tiang negara." Kita juga sering mendengar kata-kata bahawa seseorang lelaki yang berjaya, sesunguhnya dibelakangnya berdiri seorang wanita yang memberi sokongan dan inspirasi kepadanya. Malah pepatah juga ada menyatakan bahawa "tangan yang munghayun buaian itu, boleh menggoncang dunia." Jelaslah kaum wanita dilihat sebagai golongan yang bukan sahaja menggambarkan kelembutan tetapi juga memperlihatkan kewibawaan dan karisma tersendiri. Demikian bahawa wanita berperanan dalam memupuk serta melahirkan generasi yang berkualiti, berfikiran mantap dan juga berketerampilan.

Peranan wanita didefinasikan sebagai suatu tugas, tanggunjawab, atau amanah yang dipegang oleh kaum perempuan sama ada dalam segi individu atau secara keseluruhannya. Perkataan 'melahirkan' pula membawa maksud suatu usaha yang berterusan dengan penuh kegigihan yang membawa hasil daripada sesuatu tindakan atau pengaruh. 'Generasi berkualiti' pula didefinasikan sebagai kumpulan yang berkarisma tinggi dan sangat berketerampilan dalam aspek rohani dan jasmani, emosi, peranan dan jati diri. Secara keseluruhannya, kaum wanita bertanggunjawab untuk mewujudkan generasi baru yang mampu menanggung beban dunia di atas bahu dan masih menunjukkan kemantapan dalam cara pemikiran.

Don't cry me a river

2010-05-12T03:23:00.000-07:00

I cannot seem to express my feelings towards this person much in the place I am sent to everyday to obtain knowledge. Therefore, I shall come clean here.

His very living, breathing, existence annoys the daylights out of me. I have had it with him. This relationship has flourished to an extent that I refuse to work anywhere near him or even look at his face. I have tried very very hard to ignore him and to let his opinions brush past me. I have even told my super-awesome educator about this problem and she has very kindly permitted the switch of his station for duty. I thought I would obviously have a little bit more peace with this change, till today. My buddy complained to me saying that he pushed her with words which ticked her off. Literally EVERYONE has had it with his behavior. He just complains endlessly without bothering to give any suggestions on how to overcome certain issues. Sweetheart, that just is not the way to talk and get things done. If you are not happy with certain issues, please bring it up and suggest a way to overcome it. We cannot be doing everything for you.

Also darling, please know that my lovebugs and I are in charge of making sure you guys do your stuff. I avoid you and you complain about me. Seriously.. this is immature and I cannot have this feeling anymore. I am going to talk to you tomorrow. Please don't cry.

Mother

2010-05-08T20:37:00.000-07:00

I originated from the hard work of two cells. Those two minute cells formed one big cell which then multiplied..and multiplied for 9 whole months. I was brought into this world on a fine September evening..or was it morning? Oh well..anyways... I was cared for and nursed in a place which now I call home.. I used to be troublesome I think. When I was a child, I used to cry every two hours at night to be fed.. I used to break things and scream. I'm glad she never gave up on me or gave me up for adoption or something. I'm so glad she took the pain to take care of me.

Nevertheless, I was cared for and nourished by one woman. She woke up everytime I cried for food. She always gave me what I needed. She was there for me when I was upset. She scolded me for making mistakes. I honestly feel terrible for talking back to her or getting mad at her. I never really told her how grateful I am to have her around and how much I appreciate her. I mean It would be awkward if you randomly walked up to your mother and said ''mom..I appreciate you''
I mean honestly. I bought her cupcakes from the Carnival at school yesterday. My cousins are coming over later so we'll be celebrating Mother's Day and my cousin's birthday today.

Anyways, to all mothers out there.. ''Happy Mommy's Day!''

May

2010-05-05T07:14:00.000-07:00

11th May..not far off... What do I give her?

Imbibe them for they release you

2010-04-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

The Mind is a bundle of thoughts. Thoughts determine the nature of man's actions. Happiness and sorrow are the result of his actions. Whatever good or bad he experiences in life is the direct result of man's actions. The root cause of his actions are his thoughts. Thoughts make the mind, and the mind makes man. Man is so named because of his origin from the mind. He has no existence without his mind. One endowed with the mind is called man. Birds, animals and plants have no mind. If the feeling behind the action is good, it is bound to yield good result, but if the feeling is evil, the result is bound to be the same. Speech comes from the mind, the mind comes from the depths of knowledge your soul holds.

The powers that are present in man are not seen in any other species. In fact, all powers are inherent in man. He should channelize then in proper direction. Never postpone good actions....Never. Virtues are the most effective means for purifying the inner conscience of man. They prompt individuals to discover what to do and how to do it. Only those who have earned good destiny can claim their excellence in discrimination. Adherence to discrimination is the raft which takes man over the sea of life and death into immortality which in the end liberates the very soul within.

sunshine

2010-04-20T07:51:00.000-07:00

Hello all! I just wish to say...yes I'm still alive.. =)

Let me show you what you're missing

2010-04-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

An educational exhibition was held in school today. It fascinates me how every year colleges are invited to come to our school to promote themselves and every year without fail medical colleges will not be invited. Anyways, I collected a whole load of plastic bags and brochures from the representatives of most of the colleges. It was fun. =)

After the representatives left, I was instructed to ask the students of two classes to claim their tables which were used earlier for the exhibition.. Obviously many of them in one of the two classes went down to carry their tables up. The other class.... * shakes head*

Let's leave that aside, Autism Walk is being held in Sri Aman tomorrow!! I'm so EXCITED!! I will be meeting shangkra, carol (i think), Kimberly, LYDIA <33 and all my old classmates. I just cannot wait. I hope it turns out as AWESOME as I hope it would.

I have nothing else to say. I'm exhilarated from today's running up and down the stairs and all over the place.

G'night

Imagine by John Lenon

2010-04-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Mashed up

2010-04-02T19:08:00.000-07:00

I'm eating a hot crossed bun right now, just so you'll know.. =D All right, I have many random things to say to you today! Read all the way okay?

Have you listened to Chris Colfer's song Defying Gravity? His voice is so cool! It's nothing like Justin Bieber's though..and no I do not like the Bieber. In my opinion he's just a little boy. If you seem to like Justin Bieber, you should definitely listen to Chris Colfer. He is SOOOOO much better especially since defying gravity is a girl's song. You would not think it is a guy who is singing the song. I'm hooked on the song thanks to Ryan Tan. Nicole wouldn't like it but I'm sure Yi Qin would. =) I should be studying but I studied all the way yesterday, I'm just exhausted now. I'm going to attempt finishing chapter 1 and 2 of sejarah next week. I'll try hard, I promise..

Oh yes, I've deactivated my facebook account for now because I spend too much time on it and I think I should be a little more proactive with studies. I really am running out of time. We've only got 220 something days left. THIS IS NOT FUN but the faster I get prepared the better I will feel.

I also broke my glasses last night.... for the second time. Don't ask.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ca3p0i30Pc&NR=1 << go and watch this guy sing true colors and defying gravity. AMAZING.

You, me and the world around us

2010-03-31T04:45:00.000-07:00

Since I have a feeling you'll see this soon,

Hello Ms.Yogeetha!!!! XD

How do you do?

=D

hee hee heeeeeeeeeee

Please fly far away from me

2010-03-26T05:39:00.000-07:00

I am SICK and TIRED of you. I am SICK and TIRED of failing YOUR subject. How am I supposed to motivate myself to try and at least touch an 'A-' for your subject when you keep failing me?!! How is anybody going to pass your subject?! If the graph drops...don't blame us..you who called me culture-less, mannerless and borderless is going around calling people MUCH older than you by snapping your fingers and calling their name. You said I don't have respect. I know you are not happy with the post I hold and trust me, I would LOVE to say it in your face..you know I would but you also know I cannot because I am now tied down with responsibilities.

I don't understand how you qualified to get this job. You are smart, you know your facts..but you can't produce a proper method which results in us understanding your sentences. I don't know if I should study or even put in the least amount of effort to try and pass your subject because I know that people who have been working their butts off can't seem to score proper results.. I only have two words for you which I'm sure every other individual would agree with...

''PLEASE LEAVE''

The universe...you..and I

2010-03-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

We were born as individuals. Little souls, so pure...so positive. Everything and everyone we saw when we first opened our eyes was treated equally. We knew nothing. We were just a minute piece of the universe...another living being. Then our cells multiplied and we were introduced to a phenomenon known as growth. We grew all right with the guidance our our parents or to some of us, guardians. We were subconsciously dragged into different cultures and races. Not that it is a bad thing, but we seem to have forgotten our routes. Where we originated from. Who we actually are. When a person asks us "What exactly are you? or what race are you?'' what do you exactly answer them? In the first place, I honestly think that this question should not be asked at all. Does it really matter what skin colour you have? or the way you look?

It's time for us to understand that we have been separated. This is the cause of war. People have forgotten that when we were born, we were ALL the SAME. We should not be judged by colour, race, religion, culture, tradition or even by the countries we live in. We are after all related to one another. It's hard now..to treat everyone equally. Some personalities may cause chemistry...others, friction. We are humans and that definitely is considered normal, but we should at least try.

Do I make sense?

MAC

2010-03-14T05:31:00.000-07:00

Will someone do me a major favor? Pretty pretty pretty please with a chocolate mousse base, extra cream, chopped almonds and two cherries on top? You see that sexay picture on top?? Yeah... I'd be an extra special friend and I promise to love you throughout your lifetime till death do us part if you get me the 120 colour palette from MAC for my birthday =DDD

I've been dreaming of it ever since.. I really need it.. There's not a specific word to express to you how much I need it. I could do so many things with it.. I promise I will love you if you get it for me... Seriously...

Badgebadgebadgebadgebadgebadge!!!

2010-03-08T03:10:00.000-08:00

*takes a deep breath*

*pauses*

I HAVE A BADGE!!!! A GOLD BADGE!! A PRETTY ONE WHICH SHINES AND SPARKLES ON MY TIE!!! I'M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE!!!

Want to know what it says?? XD

I'll tell you anyway..

HEAD PREFECT
SHILPA

$$$$

2010-03-05T21:07:00.000-08:00

SPM is too expensive.. tsk tsk tsk. Why do we have to pay for an exam which is compulsory? If they make it compulsory then we shouldn't have to pay..
Another reason for em to bring up this topic is I'm dead broke..

AiNeedMoney!! =(

Excuse me

2010-02-25T20:11:00.000-08:00

I am tired. Tired of everything that you think benefits everyone. I'm here to support you no doubt, but I cannot afford to leave classes anymore to carry out my responsibilities. Perhaps we can make some sort of arrangement? Because honestly, this is not helping me in my studies. I'm slogging just for one sentence on a piece of paper.. It's not fair. I'm tired. I would not lie to you.

The future as I see it

2010-02-22T05:24:00.000-08:00

The future is an ever expanding dream. A dream shared by many on this planet we call our home. A dream..that to many has yet to come true..but to me is called reality. You would agree with me that when I state that even as you are reading my senseless statements I have typed, you have a million thoughts running through your mind. Every emotion you feel now,in this very minute, will not be same in the next few minutes. These new emotions bring a change in the way you think. New thoughts are formed and causes action. Therefore, are you not encountering what was earlier called future but now understood as reality? Your future depends on you. You cannot blame anyone else for failing a subject in an examination because you brought it upon yourself. You did not study because you were busy having fun and ignored your priorities.. You are in charge of your own future. You decide what is to be done. You make the decisions. You are the only one who matters in your future...that is of course until you get old and grey and would like to share your future with a partner.. But I'm too exhausted to think more on this matter...so I am going to sleep.

but just before I leave.. See that picture all the way on top of the post..yeah that super cool footprint... Well you won't think it's cool once it's destroyed our home. REDUCE YOUR CARBON FOOTPRINTS PEOPLE!!

You

2010-02-17T05:27:00.000-08:00

I miss you! I haven't seen your face in ages that it's almost unbelievable. I have no one to talk to.

I have reduced complaining about random things and now seeing as it is the holidays, I seem to have too much time one my hands which makes everything much more horrid. When people ask me if being the only child gives you more time and more fun...I usually say yes to prevent myself from looking like a complete fool. You people out there who have siblings, love every minute of your arguments, don't take your siblings for granted and no matter what happens be there for them. It sucks being alone...yes A-L-O-N-E. I honestly do not like it and it's definitely something I do not want to get used to. It's annoying me. My mind cannot be left alone for too long. I might kill myself.. I do not like myself as much as I used to anymore. I do not like me at all... I'm weird...

ps: Come back from Shah Alam puhleaseeee.

Don't cry me a river..

2010-02-12T04:57:00.000-08:00

I like making random people happy... I like seeing people happy.. =)

Amanah-Sikap tanggunjawab yang boleh menimbulkan rasa keyakinan dan kepercayaan orang lain terhadap diri seseorang.

Attention to Moral,finally...

2010-02-10T00:27:00.000-08:00

I have made it a point to dedicate 36 days of my life this year to MEMORIZE all of my ''nilai murni'' for moral. I will post the definition of a value after at least every entry.. =)

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan- Keyakinan wujudnya tuhan sebagai pencipta alam dan mematuhi segala suruhannya berlandaskan agama masing-masing selaras dengan rukun negara.

Halo

2010-02-06T22:47:00.000-08:00

Know that i'll always be here for you, no matter what... You're one of my closest friends.. =D Don't be a stranger..

You look so dumb right now..

2010-02-06T06:08:00.000-08:00

Dear Mr.Stalker,

I hope you understand that one sided love does not benefit anybody, especially when you are in love with a person you've just met. So please do take me seriously when I say ''Get the Hell out of my life!'' when I finally decide to tell you. You are annoying me. It's already embarrassing to find out about you having a crush on me FROM YOUR FRIEND...through SMS.... and it felt worst when you said you ''love'' me.. You don't even know what love is..give me a break.. and if you are a guy, you would have told me on your own.. You just proved to me that you are a wimp as your FRIEND had to call me and tell me what you wanted to say. That my boy puts you way way wayyy beneath feathery strokers.

ps: GO AWAY!

Thanks for hope

2010-02-04T05:03:00.000-08:00

It rained today quite heavily I must add as I repeat I dislike the rain very very very much. I have decided to use the word dislike in this context as the word hate is quite harsh. So as I was saying, it rained cats,dogs, ducks and every other animal you can think of, today. I also wanted to say,I did it again, but this time I was aware of every single word I typed out and sent. I looked through the papers for the second time this year and I had that urge, the sudden need to do something. So I decided to text random people from the obituary section in the papers. I sent three people messages saying condolences from me on the demise of their family member. I honestly did not expect any reply, thus, I was shocked when one of the random numbers called me. Obviously my instinct told me not to answer. So I let it vibrate until the caller decided to stop calling. When the vibration of the phone finally stopped, I sent the number a reply saying '' No, you do not know me, but I read the papers today and decided to send my condolences to you and your family..''

I received a reply from the person saying ''Thanks, to a kind person.'' <3

It made my day. Thanks random person for making my day. Thanks also for showing me that I'm not weird.. and reminding me that little things, no matter how weird or uncivilized it seems, matter a lot for people in need.

Condolences

2010-01-30T19:47:00.000-08:00

I did a weird thing today... I don't normally read the newspapers because I cannot handle the pages and how they flap all over the place, but today I decided that I have to change that habit. I read the papers all the way to the obituary, and usually I would just go through who passed away recently. Today I did something different sub-consciously and I don't know why I did it. I sent condolences to that family from my family via sms... I am sure that I do not know that person at all and I am still trying to figure out why I sent the message... What if they find me stalkerish?? =O I just realized...

Death doesn't always do us part, it actually makes us closer and stronger if we realize it.

Batu Caves

2010-01-30T05:33:00.000-08:00

Today is another, as carol would say, ''Yindian'' Day... My genius of a mother wanted to go to of all places BATU CAVES....on THAIPUSAM... I obviously declined her request to go there..but she dragged me along. Getting into the train itself was HORRIBLE...the stale smell, too many bodies against each other...and too many indians in one place.. Anyways..so yeah we got down at Batu Caves and walked...and walked....and walked..and walked.. under the SWELTERING sun.. Mom was sooo persistent to get her anklets.. and I must say I've hated anklets since I was a child because they make too much noise..especially the traditional ones. Well today, on the 30th of January 2010, I decided to get myself thick silver anklets......yes..the traditional ones..I'm actually excited about it..well duuh..if not I wouldn't actually be blogging about it now would I..

Anyways.. We bought food and more punjabi suits...then I saw two very familiar adorable faces in the crowd! Guess who...

Andrew Anil and Dasara!!

Damn cute! You should have seen their super red, sweaty faces..hahahaha Mom talked to Andrew for a bit..then we walked on..had like an enormous coconut to eat and drink which happened to be my lunch for the day.

Came home and wore the anklets...now I'm bored.....again

Cross 3 kilometers of the country with me

2010-01-28T22:52:00.000-08:00

I'm upset....I know for a fact that I'm fat, but you honestly didn't have to bring ALL of my confidence down.. seriously.. I mean there were others who didn't complete the race... why pick on me? I had so much of respect for you before this...but after you said that to me..I can tell you I don't even like looking at your stupid face anymore.. I understand I'm not as good as the other girls and that I can't run or do anything to do with sports because I'm useless..but you really didn't have to say that...

Life and Death

2010-01-17T04:07:00.000-08:00

Death... What exactly happens after it? Do we still continue living? Do we still experience emotions? Where do we go? Where will we live? Is there really a heaven? What really happens?? What happens to believers when they die..and what about non-believers? Not believing is not a sin after all. Everyone is entitled to their own forms of belief... That just makes things more complicated doesn't it?

Well then..

What about Life?? Where did the first man and woman appear? How did the come here? How were they formed? If that's what we believe..aren't we all brothers and sisters?? so..why are we getting married? Or was there more than just Adam and Eve..or as others call it Adam and Hawa? Were there others that we haven't recognized? How did the first tree appear? how was water formed? how did life start existing?

Rain Rain Go Away!

2010-01-16T16:54:00.000-08:00

Malaysia is lacking stars in the night sky =(

I want our sky to be filled with little glistening specks of light... They somehow make you feel better... Stupid clouds...

AS much as I dislike too much heat or complain about it.. I HATE it when it rains and I'm about to go somewhere. It spoils EVERYTHING... Why can't it rain after you get into a safe dry spot..It just has to rain everytime I go for tuition.. So friggin annoying DEI!!

Mojo Jo Jo

2010-01-15T21:49:00.001-08:00

Heyya!! Yes yes it's a new year so I should start blogging again.. but honestly I've lost my blogging mojo.. Nothing that fascinating has come up yet.. Monday is our prefect installation..I'm ecstatic about it.. Our prefectorial board consists of Wan San, Hwee Jing, Lester and I.. I'm also very lazy to type right now.. so after we get installed I'll blog properley..well I'll try to at least.. =D

C'ya sweetz!

Message!!!!

2009-12-29T07:28:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure if my message got through to you but since I owe you one..

I have known you for around 9 years now... The best 9 years of my life.. You're so old now.. haha
Anyway..I wanted to say that you are the only person I trust whole heartedly..of course there's nicole ..but still... I've told you this over and over again but I guess I will never stop saying it..haha You mean the world to me..honestly.. I know I hardly ever listen to your advice and I usually am a pain in the ass, but you never let go of me. I know I've made you angry before and I would like to say I'm really sorry for whatever I did wrong and thank you for always..ALWAYS being there for me no matter what..You're the only person whom I can go to for literally anything.. You're there when I'm in trouble..You're there when I'm sad..You're there when I'm happy..You know just what to say to me..I'm Super glad that you've found someone to love and care for who in return gives you more love and everything else. Just remember I'm always here for you..both of you in fact..If you ever need me.. I'm 5 minutes away.. Thanks for EVERYTHING. Ily!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUSCY!!!!

ps: Iknow this is super super super late...but that just makes it extra extra extra special! XD

Momentary solitude

2009-12-24T01:16:00.000-08:00

Solitary moment..finally...I've been dragged everywhere when all I really need is just time to spend with me myself and I in perhaps an easy chair,under a fan with a book in my hands...Seriously..but I cannot say that boating has not been totally friggin AWESOME!!!

One moment more

2009-12-22T20:06:00.000-08:00

OOT OOOT!! I'm back! No..not in malaysia..in the sense of blogging.. =D

So...I'm just here to blab about my super-friggin-cool experience DRIVING THE BOAT in kerala.
I drove the boat bitchezzzzz!!!! muahahahaha!! K now..I'm off to drown myself in coconut water.. =D hee heee heeeee

ps: I'm fishing too yi qin.. =D want fish??

Fly me to New York City

2009-12-19T19:50:00.000-08:00

I'm in India... Woke up at 4am on the 19th..left the house about 5.30..took off around 8.40...landed at 12...but we went back in time..it was 9am in india =.=....tired much... then took a connecting flight to kochin at like 2..reached at 3.20.. met a few tamil actors.. (=.=) sat for the loooooong drive home..reached home around 6..slept at 7...woke up at 6am here (3 hours diff you see)... EXHAUSTED!!!

btw... reshween..I miss you...

Proposal

2009-11-30T06:14:00.000-08:00

This pair of shoes has been on my mind ever since I saw them at the shoe shop. It was like love at first sight. So hot, so sexy, so sleek, so curvy....I need these shoes... They're perfect in every way!! Just look at it..Anyone lovable enough to buy these pair of shoes as a Christmas present for me?? Pretty please?? with a tonne of cherries on top?

2009-11-25T18:05:00.000-08:00

Have you ever fell asleep to the sound of your own heartbeat? Have you ever felt your heartbeat take over your entire body??

Try it..It's amazing

I have practice today from 12-5...kill me now...

Take one step towards me, I'll take 99 steps towards you.

2009-11-23T05:25:00.000-08:00

Faith...in you..in me.. it's the only thing that keeps us going. Think about it??

It is Truth and Truth alone, that is one's real friend, relative.
Faith is like our life breath. It is impossible to live even for a minute in this world without faith.

Truth is equality. Equality comes from the word equal. Equal is defined as 'the same'. Treating every individual regardless of race, religion, colour and tradition somehow seems to be an issue nowadays. Does this mean we need to go back to truth? That ultimate higher understanding of life? The purpose of every individual being on Earth? Is that the way towards peace among all living organisms? Perhaps...

Have you ever had time to think about random things that happen? I seem to like doing it. It somehow seems like a new hobby. I think.....

Anyways here's a thought: Has anyone ever wondered why we are here? As in.. Where did the very first person come from?? When I asked myself this question..I thought..''hmm Adam and Eve...but they were supposedly created by God''. If so..why? What are we here for? Why were we created? Who are you exactly? Who am I?? Are we the only lifeforms in the entire universe? Multiverse?? There has to be a reason.... What is the real purpose of living life?

Too many questions...Too little answers...

Help?

2009-11-23T05:17:00.000-08:00

Thought for the day :

a=(V-U)/t

S= Ut + 1/2 at^2

V^2= U^2 + 1/2 aS

V= U + at

S= [(U+V)/2 ]t

= Physics.Is.Dumb

We're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars

2009-11-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

I love the smell of grass after it rains.... But then again.. I hate the rain...

=)

And and anddddd.............. *does a little dance*

Today is officially the LAST day of FORM 4!!!!! That's it...No more....joy ends next year... I can't believe it...It is such a happy thought, but it freaks the hell out of me as well..

Celebrating his birthday on the 29th at the Chinese school in Sungai Way..No idea why but yeah. Plus point: MK will be there to watch me perform..and if he thinks I am ''talented''..hopefully I will be able to make it into the musically inclined world.....

Hopefully...

Cute much?

2009-11-17T01:31:00.000-08:00

S.T.U.P.I.D

Smart,Talented,Unique Person In Demand

XD

Stalker

2009-11-14T07:03:00.000-08:00

PS: Stop stalking my blog weirdo. XD

Keep in touch

2009-11-11T06:45:00.000-08:00

I keep forgetting things...A lot of things... It's not like me to do so....

Oh yea..Another thing.... I did not ask for your opinion on that issue..I'm not taking it as a big deal..but honestly sweetheart...Buy an enormous mirror and stare into it for as long as possible till you realize..you are not perfect either.. I would've told you in your face..but you still are my friend..so I'd rather keep quiet... That really did annoy me..You already are totally off tune and you've made all of us sing that one verse over and over and over for god knows how many times...and you think you just strut around giving your comments about what you think of people??

sorry...Not happening anymore..

Tralala

2009-11-10T21:15:00.000-08:00

OH.EMM.LIKE.FRIGGIN.GEE!!

I'm bored

Little birdie calls...

2009-11-09T17:21:00.000-08:00

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

Ps: I miss you....two years have flown by..I wonder where you are right now..

Gravity

2009-11-06T06:59:00.000-08:00

Going to die!!!! Saturday is like an hour away.....

Btw... I would like to congratulate

CHLOE CHOO YING YING!!! *plays theme song in the background*

for winning BEACON IDOL for solo dance. LOVED your stuff!!

heeee XD

ps: Mom is already nagging me....

Reason

2009-11-05T02:31:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been in a situation where you are seated at some foreign place to you and the way you think. Not to mention being surrounded by people whom you do not know at all and then suddenly there's this one soul who just almost instantaneously makes you feel calm the minute a conversation pops up between this unknown soul and yourself?? Then you realize ''hey..I could get used to this..this isn't the usual hyper, bubbly, exuberant,...I don't know..psychotic?? side of me..but there's this whole new personality... A more mature, relaxed, calm hidden individual.'' Things get silly and random topics are thrown at each other like how ''Americans shave their heads bald when they're stressed.'' HAHA britney...

*the thought of this conversation still makes me smile stupidly*

Then things get really easy...You don't feel like you're left out..because you feel like you know someone for real and it's incredible how much that person resembles the silly side of you..but obviously you don't say anything about it.. but I don't mean this in the lovey-dovey bleh way...I don't mean it that way at all... But it's like even if you don't know this person that well..there's that comfort and feeling where you know you can be the most ridiculous person in front of this unknown soul and you just know that you won't be judged...

Don't ask me how I figured all this out through a short conversation..but yeah...then again...am I wrong?? Help me figure you out??

ps: I'm going to die on saturday...pls attend my funeral preferably with orange/purple centred white orchids *shoots self*

<3

Passion

2009-10-31T16:31:00.000-07:00

I sat there on the hard marble flooring and stared out into the open space..It was raining....again....I dislike the rain especially getting drenched in it... but I do enjoy watching the raindrops hit the hard ground and make a sort of splash-like pattern. Watching raindrops make me feel happy... I like it because sometimes when you look closely you can actually relate to it. Imagine people walking, rushing....running...in and out of shops in a mall...have you got that picture in your mind?? Well if you do..fast forward it and see if it makes you smile... =) I know it makes me smile.... =D When you're in the car and it's raining outside....just put your head close to the windscreen and look up...You'll feel like as though a million arrows have been sent to puncture every tiny piece of cell on your body... It's awesome...really it is...try it =DD but then again..this is my weird side taking over...

Confessions

2009-10-27T06:49:00.001-07:00

1)I hate insects..

2)I love food

3)I'm fat..but I'm happy...So go screw yourself.. =D

4)I am crazy about make up

5)I love clothes....

6)I like taking my time in things..I hate being rushed

7)I am VERY time conscious

8)I have never been on a date

9)I take personal hygiene seriously

10)I'm scared of butterflies

11)I'm addicted to facebook

12)I have not found my purpose in life

13)I hate it when a person asks ''So..when am I meeting you next?'' I met you once..not enough?? too bad

14) I have no life

15) I have conversations on tables with people whom I do not know...yes table buddies

16) I love bright colours

17) I am scared of lightning

18) I am scared of things that I cannot see underwater

19) I am trying to avoid getting into a relationship

20) I don't like the idea of wearing lime green

21) I prefer being a vegetarian

22) I'm a dreamer

23) I spend 24 hours with myself

24) Coffee <3 thanks to nicole

25) I have cheated

26) I don't like my space intruded

27) I love chocolate

28) I can't cook

29) I like my solitary moments..at times..I think...

30) I love good grades

31) I scored my first Zero ever in a paper this year

I hate this song

2009-10-17T22:03:00.000-07:00

Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you’re tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I’m not weak,
This situation is bleak
And your puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Until Sunday I’ll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesterday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I’m feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don’t need
The sadness they have seen
But you’re way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can’t find
The moment you said goodbye

This is becoming a problem I’m hurting it’s unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in
And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to loose

My oh My..Is that a mole I spot there??

2009-10-15T01:47:00.000-07:00

I got a big fat chicken egg for add-maths paper 2..My very first one... XD

I know I should be angry and all about this whole thing but I honestly can't be bothered. I wish to apologize to that person for not telling her to not copy 'kaw-kaw'..haha but oh well. We had our fun. I also wish to apologize to that friend for not being able to attend her party tomorrow. I was really looking forward to it...but now..haih..

Yes..I still am talking to her. I do not care what the teachers think. She's my friend. So what?..
Mom was called to the office..and yes she had steam coming out of her ears yesterday..Yesterday's screaming session was sooo horrible. She never listens to me. I would also like to thank that friend of mine for owning up and not letting me loose what I really really wanted for a long time and have gotten it. I thank her to high heavens for that.

Mom is all calm now.. she's like ''Aahh yes..my daughter scored a zero..'' XD it's hilarious...

Anyways PS: I hate you too Jordan. Never did like you =) and oh yeah..sweetie..if you want to bitch about me..do it when my mom is not there?? I mean seriously... How stupid can you be?

TwinkleToes, is that you?

2009-10-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

Fat Dinosaurs Rawk! Heeeee

She hates me..I'm so happy =DDDD

Equality

2009-10-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

I hate how things affect me nowdays. It never used to be a problem..and I think both of you accustomed to that side of me. Well..I change..all the time. I hate how nobody listens to me when I want to speak my mind. I hate how you both don't care about what goes on in my head and is always busy giving instructions. You NEVER listen..and even if you do, you NEVER agree with me. Now when people set comments on my attitude...I have you both to blame.

I love you to death..but I also hate you so much!

Tinge of freedom

2009-09-29T01:19:00.000-07:00

I read Trester's bloggie today and saw something really cute :-

Trester Kena Study

yesyes, Saya mesti study :)

mesti mesti study :)

study study study :)

pergi mati mati :)

mati mati, jumpa anda di akhirat nanti :)

psychotic child...Hope she and the others do really well for their upcoming exams

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I hate my parents. No actually I love them to death, it's just I hate how paranoid and overprotective they are. Dad thinks I will get kidnapped if I go out unaccompanied by an adult(whichIdobytheway) and he is scared that I will smoke, drink or end up doing drugs. *I'm anti-drugs by the way*

Mom on the other hand wants me to study 24/7....literally... She lets me go out and have fun with my friends once in a while...We have the mother-daughter outings too..but I cannot seem to understand why they say ''no sleepovers/staying over''. I am not going to kill myself. Every other person my age has had a whole load of fun. It is obvious that I am wasting my youth..just like how they did. When I have kids of my own, remind me to throw a ginormous parties when he/she is 16, graduates, is 21, gets a car, gets married or whatever. Seriously. By saying NO ALCOHOL..I'm just going to do it anyway to know what it is all about...and all this may seem to you as a way of protecting me..but sugar..seriously..it is NOT working. The more you do it..the more rebellious I am.

<3

Under the sea

2009-09-26T00:04:00.000-07:00

The seaweed is always greener
In somebody else's lake
You dream about going up there
But that is a big mistake
Just look at the world around you
Right here on the ocean floor
Such wonderful things surround you
What more is you lookin' for?

Under the sea
Under the sea
Darling it's better
Down where it's wetter
Take it from me
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we devotin'
Full time to floatin'
Under the sea

Down here all the fish is happy
As off through the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain't happy
They sad 'cause they in their bowl
But fish in the bowl is lucky
They in for a worser fate
One day when the boss get hungry
Guess who's gon' be on the plate

Under the sea
Under the sea
Nobody beat us
Fry us and eat us
In fricassee
We what the land folks loves to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We got no troubles
Life is the bubbles
Under the sea
Under the sea
Since life is sweet here
We got the beat here
Naturally
Even the sturgeon an' the ray
They get the urge 'n' start to play
We got the spirit
You got to hear it
Under the sea

The newt play the flute
The carp play the harp
The plaice play the bass
And they soundin' sharp
The bass play the brass
The chub play the tub
The fluke is the duke of soul
(Yeah)
The ray he can play
The lings on the strings
The trout rockin' out
The blackfish she sings
The smelt and the sprat
They know where it's at
An' oh that blowfish blow

Under the sea
Under the sea
When the sardine
Begin the beguine
It's music to me
What do they got? A lot of sand
We got a hot crustacean band
Each little clam here
know how to jam here
Under the sea
Each little slug here
Cuttin' a rug here
Under the sea
Each little snail here
Know how to wail here
That's why it's hotter
Under the water
Ya we in luck here
Down in the muck here
Under the sea

I think I'll name my daughter Ariel =)

3 letter F word

2009-09-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

Exercised yesterday and today. I am also drinking a whole load of water.

Legs hurt like a bitch,so much so..walking is horrible..LITERALLY. Stupid Nicole skipped tuition today..

guess what picNic..we did log..and YOU MISSED IT!!! I hate you =) <3

You and me

2009-09-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

I miss cheerleading. The attitude you put on for 2 minutes and 30 seconds, that perky smile on your face, great hair, and a whole load of dance moves. I honestly miss the fun we had. Right now, I feel out of place. I would tell you why, but I would prefer to keep it to myself. So yeah anyways, I get sensitive on one issue..all right maybe two..or three...fine A FEW issues...

And..I just felt like saying : I can take insults anytime..as in I'm open-minded about it. It does not affect me in anyway until you bring up that topic and insult me on it.. I may not show you much of a reaction and brush it off in front of you..but trust me I'm doing a whole load of thinking in my head.Sometimes I wonder why my appearance bothers you..It's not like you're the one stuck being *** So...why bother about me? Honestly it hurts. It really does. I'm going to try and make it change.

Time management

2009-09-22T19:55:00.000-07:00

I dislike it when people are not on time or reschedule things/appointments. I think it is irresponsible. Rescheduling should only be done when there is an emergency. If not..I think the person should stick to the task he/she planned out especially if it involves another person.

Smexy Sweet Sixteen to me!

2009-09-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

16 Bitches!!!!!

I am officially 16! woohoo!! Such a happy day! I started my day with chocolate for breakfast, playing with bubbles during bio( free period ) then ate peanut butter and jam sandwich for lunch (heee) followed by a whole load of noise in class by me and scribbling on the tiles with my highlighters... Went for tuition today as well. Dad decided to get me a chocolate frappe from Starbucks and guess what!..Nicole bought me 6 cupcakes from Wondermilk (she's planing to kill me...i swear)

=)

Woke up to 9 messages and a whole load of facebook comments. I love you all la seriously. I feel like a seven year old again. Honestly. I am going to watch G-Force on wednesday with Sai, Nicole and maybe Phraveen and I'm ecstatic about it. No joke.

=)

so here goes to me

I like... (random)

2009-09-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

I like :-

Darlie Toothpaste(mint)
Eyeliner
Cake
food
The smell of mowed grass or anything green
Car rides
Horses
Dogs
Kittens
Accents
pie
my friends
green
long nails
painted nails
hard bristle toothbrushes
Dove soap
chocolate
talking
smiling
laughing
my braces

Printed perfection much?

2009-09-09T04:16:00.000-07:00

Okay, So..I have been thinking..yes yes..thinking..

I want to do something different for my 16th birthday..

I know it's THE thing to have a sweet 16 major birthday bash and all...but the idea actually bores me. On the 17th of september I will officially be 16 years old.. I wouldn't be able to go out as it would be a Thursday but I plan to go out during the Raya holidays. For those of you who know me well enough, you would know that I dislike flowers (yes I am a girl...) but for the sake of having fun, I want to buy 16 flowers and give them out to random people I meet in well wherever I am.

but..I'm not sure yet...

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Anyways....I have art tomorrow and I am planning to draw those Gorgeous heels...Tweak it a little perhaps..

Quotes

2009-09-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

"The artist finds a greater pleasure in painting than in having a completed picture" --Seneca

"The universe is full of magical things patiently waiting for our wits"--Eden Phillpots

"The thoughts of Youth are long, long thoughts"-Henry Wadsworth longfellow

"If moral behavior were simply following rules, we could program a computer to be moral." --Samuel P. Ginder

"We don't know yet about life, how can we know about death"--confucious

Vision without action is only a dream. Action without vision is wasting time. Vision and Action can change the world!

"Mishaps are like knives, that either serve us or cut us, as we grasp them by the blade or the handle." -James Russel Lowell

"I am always doing that which I can not do, in order that I may learn how to do it." --Pablo Picasso

"We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing." - Satchel Paige

A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities and an optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties. - Harry Truman, American President (b. 1884)

"Creativity is ... seeing something that doesn't exist already. You need to find out how you can bring it into being and that way be a playmate with God." -- Michele Shea (From _The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron)

hoot

2009-09-06T22:30:00.000-07:00

Exams..Exams..and more Exams....

tomorrow i have biology and art.. thank goodness today is a holiday..I dislike Mondays...Mom bought me a dress yesterday when we went out..It's so puhrtay. =D I have no idea of what to blog about so..till something comes up..buaiii

A Hispanic girl whose heart and hopes are as big as New York

2009-09-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

All that was said was fake.
All that was meant was wrong..

I know we're friends and all..but I wonder if you meant everything you said to me...

The truth hurts

2009-09-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

I decided to give our relationship a chance. I took the initiative to walk up to her, sit next to her and be nice. She looked at me and smiled.

''so..you're leaving huh..?'' I asked somewhat already knowing the answer

''Yeah,..in a few hours'' she replied ''But..I'll miss you though''

Her last sentence stopped all the random thoughts that were flowing through my mind. I went over that particular sentence quietly in my head and smiled to myself. This young girl whom I had deliberately tried to avoid in my childhood years says that she will miss me the most when she goes back to her homeland. I melted. All those long lost memories of us fighting..no,more like me starting a fight then blaming it on her filled my mind. I looked at her smiled and brought out old stories of being retarded when we were kids which to my surprise she enjoyed. After a while she left the room to pack a few clothes and before I knew it, she was on her way back to her country. I do sometimes wonder if this is the feeling a sister feels when her sibling leaves her or the way a mother feels when her children grow up and lead their own lives...

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I called India today..yes..to his place. talked to the boy for a little while. He wont be home for his birthday so I wished him an early birthday and onam ashamsagal. I sort of miss him and the bullying...but that's just it. He's pretty nice. That though does not mean that I am not standing firm with our line as cousins.

India

2009-08-23T18:09:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey from India! Yes..I am enjoying it here. The village isn't that bad anymore...but that is most probably because I brought sanitizers and mosquito repellent. So..The cousin and I walked around the village yesterday...OMFG la okay..I felt like as though I was the new shiny toy in the village..EVERYBODY stared!!! From young kids to old freaks.. Some asked my cousin if I was bloody single.. 0.0''

I love how dad has renovated the house here. It's really nice. Neways..I think I'll be hogging the boat today as well.. hee The boat is really awesome.. I get to sit on the roof =DDDD.. People here think I do not understand malayalam and they bitch about me behind my back..=.= and then when I stare them down they ask each other if I understand what they're talking about...honestly....=.=

Can't wait to go back home.. <33 Malaysia Truly Asia

ps: I'm sorry I can't get online..msn here isn't working..need to download a new one..will try.. =)

You

2009-08-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hasn't anybody told you to keep your beliefs to yourself. No seriously, I do not mind listening to you go on and on about God, but sweetheart, religion is a sensitive issue especially in our country as we are multi-racial..We accept each others' beliefs,traditions and cultures. If someone so much more elder to you says that he will not speak about or on religion...how can you?? Weren't we taught to respect our elders and follow their footsteps when we were young?? Then..what exactly is the matter with you??

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Please do not say that we are rude or have attitude problems because we already know it. The reason why most off us doze off is because you are boring. It really is that simple. You treat us like kids. We're not dyslexic *touch wood*. Please remember that..

Hope

2009-08-16T04:25:00.000-07:00

Hello hello! Yes we dissected two rats and two frogs on Friday which by the way was AWEEEESOMEE!!! Khai Ping who is not even a biology student sneaked in to see what we were up to. He joined in...and mutilated the bodies....don't ask... but overall we had a whole load of fun.

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I have not been able to talk to him for a really long time and I have to tell you that I honestly do miss him. I miss his randomness and weird moments on cam..ooh and that smile and and and his RED face..hahaha.I miss our silly conversations.. I'm sorry for not being able to meet you online as much as I was able to..You should know why. I'll be in India next week, perhaps then I would be able to catch up with you eh Red?....hopefully..

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I'm 16 next month!!! HEEEEE!!! XD I'm not asking for much really..

My Wishlist:-

1) Starbucks! (choc frapp with cream no chips please..oh yea..venti.. =D )

2)An outing with friends (must must must!)

3) Mooooovies!!!

4) Dinner party( foooood! Chillis?? totally!!)

5) CAKE!! preferably an American moist chocolate cake =DDD

6)A conversation with him perhaps? =)

One, Two,Three,Four

2009-08-12T01:11:00.000-07:00

19 57,
bulan 8 kita merdeka,
setelah dijajah oleh orang Inggeris,
Kamekaze dan Portugis.

Dari Perlis ke kota kinabalu,
rakyat bersatu dan maju,
bumi bertuah hasil melimpah,
siapa rajin hidup mewah

SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA x4

Melayu, Cina, Iban,India
Kadazan Portugis pun ada
Semua kaya dengan budaya
Di bawah kibaran satu bendera

SAAYAA ANAK MALAYSIA x4

Hujan emas di negeri orang,
hujan batu di negeri kita
walaupun cantik negeri orang
tentunya malaysia cantik lagi.

Melayu, Cina, Iban,India
Kadazan Portugis pun ada
Semua kaya dengan budaya
Di bawah kibaran satu bendera

SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA x4

hahaha chloe, just for you XDDD
I know how much you LOOOOOVE this song. =)

ps: Khoo Yi Qin's birthday is on the 23rd of August..hee hee sweet 16..I'm sorry I will not be able to attend your party and add in to the mountain of gifts I know you will be receiving for being the awesome pawesome person you are. I hope you have a blast =)

Shangkra wants my ''I'm fat but happy shirt'' haha tooooo bad!! ngehehe

Red flowers on black sticks

2009-08-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

A poster painting competition was held today in the badminton court. I drew out our drawing at like 7.00am today because I had no time last night. You should know..tuition tuition tuition.. tsk tsk tsk

Apparently while we were busy painting *ahemplagiarizingahem* a spotcheck was carried out by the prefects. Some phones were confiscated, some were returned to the owners. The confiscated phones were the phones not registered under the prefectorial board. Then there were rumors saying HE is going to ban the students from bringing their phones to school. HELLOOO!! I need my phone damn it. Thanks to you stupid, idiotic people who didn't register your phones, you have taken the privilege given to those of us who need the phone to contact our parents. If the rule has been made, we...need to pay 30 CENTS TO CALL OUR PARENTS!!! I know 30 cents is not a lot of money, but honestly, YOU take our allowance for granted, watch porn during class with your phones, let it get confiscated....and because of you, WE have to pay 30 cents to make a phone call. JFC okay!! grrr

anyways..... I hope we win for the poster thing.

India/Ipoh/Imissyou

2009-08-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

Oh.m.Geeee!!

Leaving to India in like 13 days excluding today. So far..the plan is:

leave home at 4 IN THE MORNING =.='' reach KLIA at around 5...get things done there..flight at 7 I think. We would most probably reach Chennai at 9/10 am...then lunch at..... I have no idea... but I am certain we will be doing some shopping there and we would most probably visit Prashob <> Then we have to catch a train at 7.30pm to...ugh..Champakulam (kerala).

Daddykins said we would reach there in the morning. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? Sleeping in a train with people who speak like as though you are sitting 1KM away from them.. I do not plan to sleep anyway.. Then I have......a week to waste....

not really looking forward to going...more like looking forward to getting my nails done(heeeeee) and getting a haircut(thank goodness) oh yes and SHOPPING!!

ANYWAYS............

I just came back from Ipoh and gawd it was such a looooooong day. I have been exposed to too many buildings so much so looking at miles and miles of greenery made me fall asleep in the car. I mean I do this every year.. aunty drives to Ipoh for prayers. Mom, Vim and I tag along...but this year..gahh the trip was so boringgggg. Mom just kept bugging me for something to eat like as though I brought the whole fridge along. grrr<< Mummerr you are soooo ANNOYING

Then we stoped at Tjg Malim to get the genius some food =.=

so on so forth..lalala..nothing much happened

ps: Planning to freak the grandmother out with super cool nails

pps: I miss you!

31 ogos..

2009-08-07T04:18:00.000-07:00

Tanggal 31
Bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh
Merdeka ! Merdeka !
Tetaplah merdeka
Ia pasti menjadi sejarah

Tanggal 31
Bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh
Hari yang mulia
Hari bahagia
Sambut dengan jiwa yang merdeka

Mari kita seluruh warga negara
Ramai-ramai menyambut hari merdeka
Merdeka !
Tiga satu bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh
Hari mulia negaraku merdeka

i miss him

Warisan

2009-08-05T03:25:00.000-07:00

Disini lahirnya sebuah cinta
Yang murni abadi sejati
Disini tersemai cita cita
Bercambah menjadi warisan

( korus )
Andai ku terbuang tak diterima
Andai aku disingkirkan
Kemana harusku bawakan
Kemana harusku semaikan cinta ini

Betapa
Dibumi ini ku melangkah
Keutara selatan timur dan barat
Ku jejaki

Aku
Bukanlah seorang perwira
Gagah menjunjung senjata
Namun hati rela berjuang
Walau dengan cara sendiri
Demi cinta ini

( ulang korus )

Ku ingin kotakan seribu janji
Sepanjang kedewasaan ini
Ku ingin sampaikan pesanan
Aku lah penyambung warisan

Ps: I love this song... heee

Setia Kepadamu.

2009-08-03T01:19:00.000-07:00

Demi negara yang tercinta
Dicurahkan bakti penuh setia
Demi raja yang disanjung tinggi
Kesetiaan tak berbelah bagi
Kepada pemimpin, kepada rakyat
Nikmati beri penuh taat
Sama bekerja, sama berusaha
Setia berkhidmat, untuk semua
Rela berkorban, apa sahaja
Amanah bangsa tetap dijaga
Kami berkhidmat, untuk setia
Untuk agama, bangsa dan negara.

August and September have got to be my favorite months in the year..September..well yeah, my birth month ( next month by the way..heeeeeee XDDD) and August because it's the PATRIOTIC month. August is usually the month filled with all kinds of activities such as....:

1)Singing patriotic songs [love!]
2)Drawing competitions
3)Painting/Poster competitions
4)Presentations
5) Best decorated class
6) Essay
7)''Karangan''

Anddddddd

8) Longer assemblies on monday mornings!

Yes Yes Yes babybeh! all in the month of august! *squeals*

I'm not going to be bothered about the class decoration thing because I've been doing it ever since..so yeah this year.. it's Rachel's turn. *applause* I cannot wait to get started on my essay. =)

So yeah, patriotic pieces will be posted on my blog every now and then...deal with it.

ps: Richard made a blog<<< HAHAHAHAHA

winks

2009-08-01T19:04:00.000-07:00

Hello.. it's me again....have no idea of what to blog about I would blog about phantom but there's just too much to type..and i'm really lazy... hee XD

ps: I want a MAC 120 colour palette...

smile

2009-07-30T23:53:00.000-07:00

She apologized.. =) I'm all right with her now.

Distance

2009-07-29T03:27:00.001-07:00

He stayed up for me..

-annoyed

edits....

no..not annoyed..over it.. =) Hellow you!! I know you're reading my bloggie!! =)

Ps: Reality much..

2009-07-28T06:45:00.000-07:00

I'm quite annoyed at you. I used to be close to you, then you started being all weird when she and I became closer. Yes, we have raging hormones..it's something quite normal. You can look it up in the biology book or better, wikipedia.

Just because we make fun of a whole load of things in dirty ways does not mean we're sexually deprived and obssessing about it. I really am upset with you. I have fun this way and if that is the reason that you are not talking to me right now I think it's silly. You are really sensitive. I called my dear a retarded cow and instead of my dear getting upset, you did..Seriously... If you think that being innocent is going to help you in whatever you plan to do...you're wrong. I mean. even my parents laugh when dirty jokes are thrown around. What's it to you?? =.= oh yeah...and btw..I told her about what we discussed the other day..because she is my closest friend ever!! so yeah..

ps: The guys are hilarious, that's why we talk to them...but to some people who think guys are disgusting and all....well...I don't know what to say to you anymore.

tired

2009-07-23T02:36:00.000-07:00

Hey, so the final day is on friday. Will blog later on about concert as I really am too tired to think. At Nic's place right now..She's sleeping.. I've no internet connection at home..so yeah..hogging hers =P hee made friends..took LOADS of pictures..hugged people whom i do not know..and yeah..so on so forth..like i said.will blog later